Today the Book Stop Blog is featuring the final excerpt from A New Life: Delivered From Lesbianism by Linda D. Carter.
I finally eased out of bed and peeped out my bedroom window to see if my car was parked in the driveway. I slipped on some clothes and went out to my car to see if I had hit anything the night before. There were no dents and no scratches on it. I breathed a sigh of relief and slowly walked back into the house. I got back to my bedroom and I fell to my knees at the foot of my bed. With tears streaming down my face and my hands lifted up to God, I cried out, "Lord I surrender. I give up. I am tired of living this life!"
I felt like I had run out of gas. I repented of my sins right then and there at the foot of my bed.
Romans 10:9 says,
That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved.
I was at home alone. That Saturday morning is the day God snatched me out of my sin, washed me clean, and forgave me of all the sin I'd ever been guilty of. I will never forget that Saturday morning.
Now it's time to say Good Bye
After surrendering to God, I knew that I had to say goodbye to my two best friends. We had been like inseparable sisters. We'd had some good and bad times together. We'd laughed, talked and even cried together. We were extremely close. But now it was time to break the news. I called the two of them and told them, that I needed to meet with them. They both agreed.
We met at the club, and as the three of us got situated at the table, I shared with them, that God had called me, that I'd answered Him, and that I was going with Him. They both told me that they were not ready to come in, so I tried to explain to them both as best as I knew how, that I had to let them go. I also let them know that I could no longer hang out with them, could no longer do the things we'd done for over ten years, and that I was cutting off all communication. The word of God says in 2 Corinthians 6:17, "heretofore come out from among them, and be ye separate, saith the Lord, and touch not the unclean thing; and I will receive you."
I told them that I would be praying for them both. We cried together and hugged one another. Then I excited the club and never looked back. I was so serious about my walk with God, that I even changed my phone number. Of course, word soon spread that I was no longer a lesbian, but that didn't matter to me. I was committed to never return to that life again.
I was seeking God about who my new friends would be, because I was essentially starting from scratch. That particular experience and time with God was lonely but purposeful and fulfilling. God took me by the hand and led me every step of the way.
In fact, God did not give me new relationships quickly. Everything was a process and was done in His timing. Gradually, the Lord established me in healthy female relationships.
After a time, I felt God leading me to move away from the church I'd been raised in. After my mother had passed away, I no longer felt like that church was the place for me to be. Even so, I didn't know what church my son and I would be joining. God already had it all planned out, however.
A friend of mine had previously invited me to her church, but I'd just pushed it to the back of my mind. Then one Sunday night, I was talking with my sister and she started talking to me about this same church. My son and I wound up visiting several times and eventually joined. Together, we began to learn more and more about the things of God.
Months after joining, I felt God leading me to be baptized in water again and I did. I'd been baptized when I was young but had not experienced a true conversion. When I came up out of the water, I felt so clean and refreshed. I now better understood the importance of being baptized and what it meant.
During the this time, I began to learn God's voice and developed a relationship with God. It was also a time of being set apart for God, so that He could pour himself into me without distraction.
To Continue Reading
To start with the first book excerpt in the series:
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