Single mom for 18 years of two AMAZING sons! Ready for the next step in life! Bring it on so I can write about it! I think that being honest with yourself is important. Honest about what you’re
Posted 10/19/15 at 8:55 PM | Marianne Kurtz
I had discussed previously how I felt about living your life basically through someone elses eyes for your life. There has to be a point when you say STOP! No more, I am going to think for myself, be myself, impress myself, and be happy within myself. How can that happen when the constant opinions and thoughts of what others might feel are weighing in on every decision?
It’s time ladies, stand up and think for yourself. If you’re married, I don’t mean go against your husband, I’m talking about what is it that you like? And why?
I also shared about my wall that tells my story…this is something I wake up to every morning that reminds me of my independence of what others think I should like or dislike. If I dislike/like something it is because I have formed a well thought out opinion…if I say I don’t know it’s pretty simple, I haven’t the facts to weigh into a decision, but I’m not afraid to do that.
I like sausage Pizza!! I don’t like peperoni but I will tolerate it because Inu (my Shitzu) can eat the peperoni so its ok…I’ll share. FULL POST
Posted 10/14/15 at 8:02 AM | Marianne Kurtz
There was a time when I lost myself in who everyone thought I was.
Before Christ it was a party girl who was always ready for a night out...but really I just wanted to stay home but I just couldn't tell people that because I was the party girl! Pretending to love that lifestyle was very difficult.
After Christ it was a whole other kind of chameleon lifestyle. Listen to the people in my life and do whatever they say because it must be right!! I mean they are Christians, how can they be wrong??
One thing remains the same through all the "finding myself" going on and that has always been my love for the word of God and the way it ministers to me! It's so freeing to read about the love of God!
I recently found myself at a crossroads where I started to lose all of who I found that I am. I needed to remember and not lose myself in the emptiness of my home! God inspired me to design a wall that tells my story. At first glance it looks like jewelry but get closer and it tells who I am and what I love, even who I love. I don’t want to be among the people who loose themselves in the other person or even in my kids. I gave MY ALL to my kids, but I’m talking about things that define our personalities. FULL POST
Posted 10/2/15 at 2:32 AM | Marianne Kurtz
This chronicling series is dedicated to all those moments when I knew I overreacted but it was too late AND all those predicatments that this little RED dot can get us into.
So here is the first in a sporadic volume of period chronicles:
This happened last month when I flew into California to visit my son, who just joined the navy last year and is the cause of mother growing pains when he left - it is where he is supposed to be, ANYWAY...it was for his 21st birthday and we decide we would meet at the airport and rent a car and drive, YES DRIVE, 12 hours up the coast of California directly after landing. GREAT IDEA!
Well, guess who ended up driving all night? Yep, yours truly!
Woke him up around 9am and he had to drive…now we are in the Redwood Forest area and stopping EVERYWHER! There is no better feeling than the knowledge that my son was getting a dream fulfilled before the age of 21. This was worth losing two nights of sleep that I would miss because of the period. FULL POST
Posted 9/28/15 at 3:14 PM | Marianne Kurtz
As little girls most of us probably watched those cute little movies where the prince comes as a knight in shining armor and whisks the soon-to-be princess away from a situation that was not so great.
Maybe it was Snow White - where the evil witch put a spell on her because of her beauty. Then the prince came and with kiss she awakens and her life is changed. All the wrongs were made perfect. Sounds great! Who wouldn't want to be her?
The Cinderella tale in which she was being mistreated by her stepmother and sisters - one glass slipper later and off to the castle. Sounds just dreamy!
These stories are so very sweet and mighty romantic but, they are animated movies and we know they won't happen. But, we dream of our current life changing and dancing with the prince, wearing the crown and everyone wanting to be us.
Then we grow up...
The animated movie that once had the possibility of being reality does not stand a chance. In fact, by now some of us have been betrayed by friends, and/or hurt by acquaintances and coworkers. Quite frankly, the dream just stays in a snow globe on the top shelf of some curio cabinet in the back room of our house NOT CASTLE.
No one has lived up to our high expectations and seemingly never will. If, like me, you ended up in some boyfriend/girlfriend or husband/wife relationship (or both) than WOW the let down and disappointment is huge. Who can ever live up to our dreams now? FULL POST
Posted 9/22/15 at 1:14 AM | Marianne Kurtz
First of all I want to thank my friends for always listening and sometimes ranting with me about all kinds of crap and this is one of them…
I have come to the realization that I don’t date! I hate dating! I wasn't sure how I was and I had to find out. It's not that I never dated...I did, but I did not experience the basic idea of putting your phone number on every napkin in the bar and then comes the barrage of messages and they all think I'm beautiful and then some are INSTANTLY in love...that screams Psycho!
I am really a ONE man at a time person! So the idea that online dating seems to imply that you can be with more than ONE person at a time…you date them! Cannot understand that! I’m an all or nothing person, there I said it!
Now, I’m not a psycho! Mmmmmm…yea, no. Not a psycho! But, I do believe that if you “date” someone and you want to go out again then why would you keep looking? So you find someone you like better? How does that make sense? Especially when I’m NOT a booty call! FULL POST
Posted 9/14/15 at 6:12 PM | Marianne Kurtz
Dating…18 years later
For 18 years I lived my life focused on God and kids…nothing wrong with that!
However, my sons have grown and I’m alone…a lot different than what I thought it was going to feel like and be like, because WOW how I wanted my alone time before…and I still like alone time…BY CHOICE!
I have a great idea! It's time I start to see what kind of husband material is out there!
Here I go…to the “dating scene”…kind of!
So, much has changed…
I’m Not really sure how all this is supposed to work with the online scene, but in meeting someone online, the key is to MEET in real life so…Why in the world would you contact me from 534 miles away?! SERIOUSLY!!! WHY???
It’s not like I’m gonna hop on a plane for a booty call even if I was “that kind” of girl!
Scenario plays out: Chat online for a bit, asks for my number…ok (I don’t know you’re 534 miles away). I give you my number…we text…find out all kinds of things about each other…and then find out he’s 534 miles away…this can’t work!! Text a bit more… “Oh that sucks!” is the gist of the conversation. And then…CROTCH SHOT…WHAT?? FULL POST